I just re-read some of our conversations and it feels like nothing has actually changed, but when I look at reality, everything’s not the same anymore. It hurts. It fucking hurts. I still love you and I want you back. I want us to be back — to be together again. If I could just turn back time, I should’ve went home that night, I should’ve followed you. Edi sana tayo parin. I was wrong, I was wrong in so many aspects. I want to make it up to you, but you won`t let me. I know, it’s not that easy to have your trust again, but please let me have that chance to prove to you how sorry I am and to make things better for us. I admit, I was too controlling over you and us. I wanted things to go my way most of the time. I know it’s too late to say this, but I swear I’ll fucking change that attitude.. Just be back. I miss you but I miss us more. I am more than willing to change and to do anything to make it up to you.. Anything to bring you back to me :( 

Dahil feel kong mag blog. 

Sobrang nakakatuwa talaga. Super happy kami nung monthsary namin nung October 8. Tapos simula Monday hanggang kanina, nagkasama kami. Kahit na marami siyang ginagawa sa school, may time parin siya para sa amin. 6 days straight kaming nagkasama. Nakaka touch kasi pinupuntahan niya pa ako sa CSB. Super happy week talaga. Tapos kanina, nag away pa kami. Nanakit pa pero okay na. Natakot ako talaga kanina sa kanya pero naging okay rin kami. Kasalanan ko rin naman bakit siya nagalit ng sobra. And problema talaga sa akin, tahimik lang ako pag magkaaway kami tas siya maingay. Naninigaw and nananakit pero galit nga kasi siya nun. Super bait and iniingatan naman ako nun e `wag lang galitin. After away, sakitan and sigawan, sobrang naging okay naman kami ulit. Buti na lang naayos din agad. Buti na lang okay na okay na kami ulit. Sana talagawa wala na lang naimbentong away away para good parati. Haha pero okay rin kahit papano natuto naman ako and na-realize ko rin mga bagay bagay. So thank you, Bro for this happy week ! :D 

E kasi gusto ko maging memorable first monthsary namin. Ako talaga `yung taong hindi marunong magregalo. Hindi naman kasi talaga ako maregalo na tao pero pag feel ko magpaka sweet at ewan, go lang ng go. 2 weeks pa lang before monthsary, pinag-iisipan ko na ano gagawin ko pero hindi ko masimulan kaya minadali ko lahat ngayong week. Natapos ko naman siya sa wakas pero hindi ko parin napupuno `yung notebook na ibibigay ko. 77 pages lahat `yun at may 14 pages pang walang laman. Nagmadali rin ako pumuntang mall kanina para bilhin `yung shorts na gustong gusto niya. Reggae kung reggae. Muntik pa ako na short dahil bumili pa ako ng frame para sa caricature namin. Gusto ko talaga maging masaya kami bukas. Sana matuwa siya sa simple gifts ko. Gusto ko na mag bukas, gusto ko na magkita kami ! 

1 month down, forever to go !